There are times when I feel like I have them. And then there are times when I feel all alone. I am not sure which has been more prominent in my life lately. I just hope I don’t cease existing in other people’s lives. Even when I need space, even when space is two thousand and some miles. My heart just hurts. A lot. But I never stop believing everything will be okay in the end. I have that faith. I just need to make sure I can get there in the long run rather than burn out too early. So many changes, so many fucking changes and I am not sure I have been dealing with them in a respectable manner. I push them aside. I haven’t been dealing with them. I broke.
“Heart is Hard to Find” by Jimmy Eat World. Listen to it. Or look up the lyrics. It kind of…. it hit me. It’s the first thing I have felt in a long time.